Sunday, February 5, 2012

Unspeakable joy

The human body is only capable of expressing so much emotion. A person can sob their very hardest when  experiencing the greatest pain known to mankind, but sometimes the extreme of the emotion exceeds our ability to express it, and we are unable to display the degree of whatever extreme state of mind we have reached.

I assume most who know me, know of me, or recognize my name somewhere often pair whatever visual of me they have in their mind with the happiness I claim to have or the little smile I like to give. I am easily excited and often respond to jolly news like a silly, little girl. But you won't see me at a high energy level every waking moment or wearing a blissful grin every time you take a glance at me. I would not even be shocked if someone once says, "You seem very happy by the clothes you wear and the jokes you tell, but I do not see you constantly laughing, and sometimes you're even quiet."

That is because... I have reached a level of happiness and contentment that I am physically only capable of showing so much of. There is so much love inside of me that God has opened a new room in my heart just to store it in; all of it, I hope you will see in my actions and the things I do up until the day I die, and only so much of it, you will find displayed through my regular smiling and breathing. Right beside playing music, one of my favourite things to do is share the love of God with other people through conversation. I hope I am able then to give you a piece of this great happiness I carry. Just know that I do not claim the bold title of "happy," "content," or "grateful" just to encourage others to do the same; even if I may not be laughing or speaking like one would imagine a cheerful person doing every waking hour. I can only express so much happiness through curved lips and open eyes. And that is because I have come to possess... unspeakable joy.


Whoever you are, whether you know me or not, I want to have a conversation with you. Let me share this great happiness with you through words as best as I can.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Let me tell you about something here,

I would like to share something very special with you. (Also) often am I asked why it is I am not currently in a relationship or why in the world am I not even interested in dating right now or hooking up with boys, so perhaps this will answer you again, but this time to its fullest extent. This is not why I am not chasing after relationships, but rather why I am content without one. Let me tell you something again now before you read, that I expect few to nod their heads while taking in the content of my words below and for most to leave this page disturbed or confused.

I have come to attain the most fulfilling friendship a person could ever know-- a friendship with the Creator of the universe and the Healer of my broken soul. I never imagined the God of the world... could love me. It's the kind of romance that makes me want to twirl the skirt of my dress in a field and smile when I'm going to sleep, in acknowledgement of my true Protector.

It's the kind that doesn't ever all the way die.

The kind of romance that causes me to constantly feel timelessly beautiful, even if not a gentleman in the world is treating me kindly. The kind of romance that keeps the creativity in me from dying, where my mouth and my fingertips are continuously crafting new outlets of art as another way to communicate to my Divine. My physical body thirsts for Him and my mind and my limbs will not stop learning new ways to speak through song or written word, whatever it may be.

Sure, I would love to be married one day and experience perfect, life-long romance with the male human God designed me to belong to. But until that time comes, I am happily and absolutely content. Every day I wake up, I have the ability to make a difference in one's life. Now how do you expect me to have the slightest understanding of that and not be satisfied with the very gift of being alive?  My God! What a wonderful thing it is to have a friendship with You. What a reward it is to know we were all given the ability to save lives for You. If only we would let You in...

I have come to know the greatest romance of all.

And I know now...

that I will never know the feeling of being alone.














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Thursday, January 12, 2012

You make beautiful things

out of the dust













And You make beautiful things out of us